>>162 i think everybody has had a crush one time in their lives lol. no, im not interested in guys, only GIRLS. lol
ive only had 2 girlfriends so far. im not sure if the first one was love.. probably infatuation. second one was probably half love, half infatuation, as it started from an internet relationship. right now, on the relationship side of things, im trying to find somebody that lives close and in real life. im interested in a couple of girls but im seeing how their personalities are first.. as i dont want to make the same mistakes i did in the past.
im hoping to find a girl that can go along with my jokes and not act cold. somebody that can talk when we have a dinner together. id prefer somebody that has a soft side to them but is honest and strong willed.
what did i learn from long distance relationship? id have to say that its hard to earn one's respect when you are not near them. i also think that its best to find somebody that has similar opinion on relationships. for example, i would like to exchange opinions and make desicions from listening to each other. i want to be able to compromise so things are best for both of us, not just one person. i would like the girl to rely on me but not solely on me. (たいていでいたい）
we were "going out" for 6 months before we finally met in the summer. it was very agonizing not being able to meet her until then... we used to talk on the webcam everyday for at least 4 hours (i would sometime stay up until 2am, even though i had to wake up at 6am for school)
im not exactly sure which... my parents want me to choose america but im not so keen on choosing it. to be honest, i could care less about america at this point... i just dont feel like i belong here... nobody is being racist to me or anything, its just that i dont feel like i can relate to many of the people here. anyways, ive had much more fun being with my asian friends (taiwanese,chinese,korean, japanese friends in highschool, right now, japanese friends) than with my american raised friends since 3rd grade (whom i still think is important to me).
sorry if i went a little off topic on some stuff. i tend to do that :/
